pushing thru tough decisions

well its been a while since i have made up my mind to save money, but think i havent been the best of putting my words into action, by now i have failed miserably twice, or thrice to be exact, succumbing to temptations... 1st was giving in to a K-Box session, which cost me a full $20 cos i got a discounted taxi ride home, 2nd is a dota session on last sunday, 26 nov, and lastly is a dota session just today... its not easy... to say i just wanna go and watch u all play, i'm actually very blessed that for both sessions, ppl offered to treat me to it, i guess its wat i'd do also if i were in their shoes, but yet i find it a very hard time, i do not want to stubbornly resist the treats, but neither to i want to take it for granted... its hard to resist the persuasion to play, but yet i feel bad when they pay for my game cos its was a decision on my side, to decide to play and inccur tat cost, its like asking ppl to pay for my mistakes, smthg i dun wanna do... its really a hard time... God pull me thru it!