Overwhelmed with emotions

well for ppl who think i'm totally rational and not emotional at all, u're wrong and to those who think i have no problems in my life, u're wrong too... well things r just piling up over this whole period of time and i'm overwhelmed by the emotions, both from things i sort of chose to involved myself in and things i'm forced to be involved in, like my family... dun wanna go to the details, but the tensions are strong everywhere ard me, and if u have my MSN, my nicks for the past few days says a lot, "a volcano in an earthquake zone easily explodes... rob me of a sound reason for exploding... please" and "i wanna be Cao Cao from RTK" y cao cao u may ask, cos of a famous line of his "寧願我負天下人，也不願天下人負我" well tat sort of sums up how i feel now... living for myself VS living for ppl, it seems i maybe getting sick of the latter... wat am i doing all this for, i really have no idea anymore, i just want to live a life of my own now... anyway even if u wanna sum up the "人情債" with me and most ppl ard me, i think i have a surplus except with my parents, i'm definitely at a deficit, so i dun owe anyone anything and no one has the right to stop me from going my own way if i want to...