Life can be better...
well this is a very negative post, ppl who r easily affected pls beware...
well it has been a week or so since my last post and a lot happened... i mean A LOT...
1st was ard mid week before 27th, had a long tok with a fren regarding some issues in my life, my problem with God, and sort of was convinced by God thru the person to lay down my own ways and submit to Him again, to pray for faith, well tat was all and well, gd news, but well i din really get very consistent immediately with bible reading and spending time praying...
2nd is just monday, 30th jan... we cldnt wake my dad up, and when he finally opened his eyes, he cldnt respond verbally nor was he conscious of where he was, so had to send him to the hospital, its diagnose as minor stroke, he's warded in TTSH now... very sianz with the way the doctors and nurse were working... the doctors take freaking damn long time to settle my dad's case, 5 hrs to get a bed, another 2-3 hrs of waiting just to tell us they need to do more tests, then freaking hell no results today... then the freaking nurses also nvr bother to explain wat all the stuff they subject my dad to were for... damn pissed... y in hell r they charging such high prices for such f up services... freaking blood suckers...
3rd is my 2 assignments due the coming fri, 3 feb, and my hons project mid term progress talk at 12 noon on the same day, getting so sianz and stressed tat escapism is kicking in again... any less sane i am, i think suicide wld be my choice... but even now i think i'm heading for academic suicide... but who the heck cares... getting a 3rd or 2nd lower class hons doesnt bother me... my future pay is the same... if i get sympathy marks from my profs and get D's for everything i still get 3rd class hons... final CAP will be 3.21 even if i get 0 CAP for this sem... wun die but anyway tats it...
life can be better... my faith can be better, my family can be better, my studies can be better, my health can be better... just remembered a quote on a fren's MSN nick... the biggest room in this world is the room for improvement... haiz... if only life was better...
well it has been a week or so since my last post and a lot happened... i mean A LOT...
1st was ard mid week before 27th, had a long tok with a fren regarding some issues in my life, my problem with God, and sort of was convinced by God thru the person to lay down my own ways and submit to Him again, to pray for faith, well tat was all and well, gd news, but well i din really get very consistent immediately with bible reading and spending time praying...
2nd is just monday, 30th jan... we cldnt wake my dad up, and when he finally opened his eyes, he cldnt respond verbally nor was he conscious of where he was, so had to send him to the hospital, its diagnose as minor stroke, he's warded in TTSH now... very sianz with the way the doctors and nurse were working... the doctors take freaking damn long time to settle my dad's case, 5 hrs to get a bed, another 2-3 hrs of waiting just to tell us they need to do more tests, then freaking hell no results today... then the freaking nurses also nvr bother to explain wat all the stuff they subject my dad to were for... damn pissed... y in hell r they charging such high prices for such f up services... freaking blood suckers...
3rd is my 2 assignments due the coming fri, 3 feb, and my hons project mid term progress talk at 12 noon on the same day, getting so sianz and stressed tat escapism is kicking in again... any less sane i am, i think suicide wld be my choice... but even now i think i'm heading for academic suicide... but who the heck cares... getting a 3rd or 2nd lower class hons doesnt bother me... my future pay is the same... if i get sympathy marks from my profs and get D's for everything i still get 3rd class hons... final CAP will be 3.21 even if i get 0 CAP for this sem... wun die but anyway tats it...
life can be better... my faith can be better, my family can be better, my studies can be better, my health can be better... just remembered a quote on a fren's MSN nick... the biggest room in this world is the room for improvement... haiz... if only life was better...
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